Day 30: February 28
The thought for today is MAKING AMENDS.
Making amends is part of the twelve step program used by Alcoholics Anonymous and various other groups. It takes honesty and courage to take this step. I have to first face up to the harm done to others by my actions, be willing to make things right, and then actually attempt to do so.
Facing up to the injury I’ve caused another won’t be easy. I’ll probably try to convince myself that I really didn’t do anything wrong or try to find some justification for what I did. I may tell myself that what I did wasn’t really that bad or that the other person couldn’t possibly have suffered because of me.
When I finally come to the realization that I have caused harm and that making amends is the right thing to do, it will take some reflection on my behavior and the situation to find the proper course of action. I’ll have to be careful that in attempting to rectify the situation I don’t unintentionally cause additional harm. There may be times when I am unable to make amends. At these times, the desire to act will have to suffice.
Though it sounds selfish and when all is said and done, this is something I do for myself. I deeply desire to heal what’s been broken but I cannot do anything to change the heart and mind of another. I seek forgiveness; if none is offered, that’s okay. I have done my part. I seek to pay whatever debt I owe; if I am not allowed to do so, that’s okay, too. I have done what is mine to do. Whether I am forgiven or allowed to make restitution is up to the one who has been hurt. What I can do is choose to let Love be known through me to bring healing where it is needed.
I reflect on the times I may have injured someone else, whether intentionally or not. I consider how my words and actions may have caused pain and allow Spirit to guide me as to how I might set things right. I do what I can with what I have; however, if I am not given the chance to repair the relationship, then I have to let my desire to do so be enough. I offer a prayer for healing, bless it, and let it go.
breathe Peace ~